still holding that one part of what i thought was a real relationship.
started your current blog because of me, gave me perfume, said i was the one who showed you what is love. all the blahs.
but what now? he has one, his pics on that blog, hes young and love?
how am i to use this? how am i to see this? how am i to really let go of it all? i smell this everytime i go pass a chanel counter. smelling this and egoist. smiling thinking of the times i smell it on you and saying how much i like you smelling like that. was i the first one to receive this? even yes, it doesn't mean anything anymore, because he has the same one as me. i thought you'd think of it first before you would do such a thing.
its been almost a year of staggering pain thinking of the past and what happened. lost you, zach all together. how am i to really be happy again? theres only one love i had and theres only one you.
maybe i'm just naive and dumb. but ain't love about being dumb and everyday is a discovery?
how am i supposed to feel now?
