hmmm. went out with selwyn not long ago. towned and stuff. actually going out with him quite fun leh. can learn alot of things, his views and even to find out that he is quite a creative person! hah. =P

anyway. i guess maybe i decided to make it a normal event on the 8th ba. since not alot of people know nor would they also want to make it like as if i'm some kinda high profile dude. maybe sharon? plus selwyn or something. if not than just stay at home lor. oh well...whats there to celebrate also. =/

still thinking whether or not to go to the party thingy with selwyn and kevon. should i or not. its like i want to go but i don't want to go. =.= dilemas. damn.

like i told selwyn, i'm in woes. its speedy35 and safetypin.

i went to try the speedy 35 and it looks just nice on me? 1110 quite okay la. but than its still a speedy. safetypin, i guess you should know what i mean if you have been reading my blog for last year. =)

(wheres my good year? =/)

hmm. well...trying to do bits and pieces for a little gift for someone? hopefully it is good enough ba. nothing fancy. just small gift that would determine my future. =)

please go okay? =)

*prays*

hmmm. HAPPY NIU YEAR! =)

well. i guess maybe its going to be a busy period yet again?
cny with family
cny with besties
cny with clique
maybe bdae celeb at new zirca
bdae

wow. =)
*i pray pray pray my only dream for this year would come true*

after all the giving up and all the fucked up stuff that is happening to me, at lease there is one thing which i am very certain of now. and that is i still feel for eug. i know maybe i'm not supposed to or it might not happen again, but than i really love you and wish that one day something would happen.

just pray.

fabulous is moving?! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!

well. so there goes noel. for doing something that i couldn't control, my feelings. i was so freaking low on my life and was so near to giving up the whole life there. so that he came and made me feel that at lease there is someone who does care for me, showed concern, say nice things and stuff. caught me at my weakest and used it.
and things happened, i met him and realised that we weren't even meant to be. i thought i could trust nothing would really happen btw me and noel? how would i know that it is actually broke our friendship? i really don't know whats going on. he was someone whom i treated as a good friend, thought about him everytime(not love type of thinking), i even thought of him when i was out with that him. yes i know i said things about him and went against it, but doesn't he understand whats going on with the r/s s in my life? all the fuckers that cheated on me infront and behind of me. what am i supposed to feel? happy and feel strong? all i wanted was a bit of understanding because i treated you as a good friend and understood what that him did to me. i didn't even manage to finish telling him what really happened.

so now its gone, move on? can't. its too strong of a friendship for me.

today went to collect rice with jared and gang for the project rice. where we collect rice from alot of places so that volunteers can pack them up into 5kg bags and give it to charity! =)
so we got LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS of rice!

so tmr going back there again to distribute the rice to the people who needs them. cool!

=) i love doing such stuff.

damn ittttt!!!! i still cannot find a cheap jacket! all at lease 90 bucks. gawddddd. whyyyy.. it looks so freeeagggging cheap and than its so ex! =(
still got other clothes! ROAR

LOL!!!!

SO CUTE!

it is over and i would not talk about it again.

hmm. its like everyone chiong-ing ut, i here blogging =.=

well...have yet to buy new year clothes and omg the jacket is like having to find a black birkin 35 in a hermes shop, practically impossible. =( omgggg...only 2 more weeks. cny cny!

a. =)

hmmm. just managed to change the diff parts of my blog. the wishlists updated, the photos changed and stuff. still don't think i want to change the blogskin as i still kinda like this skin. =)

well. 2 more weeks before the class is going into the history books. its been such a fast year. oh well. confirm we would have more fun outside. i guess.

new year. new resolutions. new life. all the emo posts from now on is just whinning instead of reminising. new clothes. new style.

new me! =)

still holding that one part of what i thought was a real relationship.

started your current blog because of me, gave me perfume, said i was the one who showed you what is love. all the blahs.

but what now? he has one, his pics on that blog, hes young and love?

how am i to use this? how am i to see this? how am i to really let go of it all? i smell this everytime i go pass a chanel counter. smelling this and egoist. smiling thinking of the times i smell it on you and saying how much i like you smelling like that. was i the first one to receive this? even yes, it doesn't mean anything anymore, because he has the same one as me. i thought you'd think of it first before you would do such a thing.

its been almost a year of staggering pain thinking of the past and what happened. lost you, zach all together. how am i to really be happy again? theres only one love i had and theres only one you.

maybe i'm just naive and dumb. but ain't love about being dumb and everyday is a discovery?

how am i supposed to feel now?

ayo....ikea or stay at home watch brothers and sisters or stay at home read twilight?! omg. =/

well. was talking to noel (as usual) about someone (as usual) and did something (kinda as usual too?) and he said something that i felt was right. he said that i have been rather down for this week. i kinda have to agree. with me and the problems that is around me? i don't know. theres the ups and the downs. the ups was over and i guess the now is all the downs. hopefully this isn't the proper start to the new year.

hmm...still thinking of what color hair to dye before new years. its either the usual red or the ash colors that i saw at victoria secrets. red is cool esp the ones that i get it done at bugis, but my sisters have red hair and i don't want to look like the usual since last year. ash is something new but than i don't know whether it can last that long or would it suit my color. but than browns usually doesn't fade that obvious right. but than ash kinda common, no? =/

still got clothes to think about! omg. i don't know what style am i going for this year! i thinking of going british topman look. the black jacket, white tee and electric blue bottoms... but than i can't seem to get the jacket! gawd. plus i need to think of more than 1 day of new year! theres the usual 3 days. 1 for jie mei, 1 for sec sch classmates(maybe?) and this year there is one or maybe two for the poly mates! gawddddddd my poor new lv wallet has to see all this go thru! =(

but i got a feeling that this new year would be better than last year. =) maybe my birthday too? =P

victoria secrets! =D

an an. cheer up kays? =(

hmm. from what i feel and see, i guess maybe you are a yes and a no all together. i wish i am wrong but maybe its all not working out as i wish. too soon? maybe.

but i guess i'm tired. shall leave there for the time being. this time, for real. one small step at a time and i really hope i can be able to do so. this time, it shall be a me time. healing and soul searching. looking for a better me and hopefully a better other.

is twilight that good? the book i mean.
because i heard that its supposed to be a girl's book? but than i see more guys reading it than girls! is it the book is so good or is singapore having more and more guys who think they are girls? =/

is it really that good? =/

i'm never going to be someone whom everyone knows
never going to be someone whos very cool
never going to be someone who studys at laselle nor nafa
never going to be contented with life
never going to be very slim nor hot
never going to be goodlooking
never going to look like a laselle student no matter how hard i try
never going to be happy thinking that i didn't go laselle
never going to be able to do what he really loves so much
never going to find someone who love him for being him

never going to be? or i just don't want to be?
*yeah..its another "not in laselle" post. its really affecting me =(*

hmmm... been so many days of busy since i came back from singapore. i guess finally i can get a breather before sch starts. alot more broke but alot more happier. =)

well..the new ctss is rather nice..hear things here and there and it sounds rather impressive. i have yet to really go tour ard...maybe soon ba.

well...told sharon something and i guess maybe its time for it to happen. i don't feel the pain or whatsoever...so maybe this time it would turn out well ba. =)

i can't think of anything to write because yong an "forced" me to write post! =P

<3!