thats almost the reason why i want a bff. its not a joke. i want a friend who i know would always always be there for me. make me laugh, make me happy, make me stop thinking about fucking dumb things. i thought i had bffs. i told them stuff, i laughed, i happied, i stop thinking about it. but soon later, they leave for other cooler kids. don't tell me its nothing, cuz its not the first friend who did this to me and yes i can see they are cooler than me. zach, isaac, who else now? i trusted them so much.

its really the lowest part of my life. i can't think of anything that would bring me up to the prime where i was. happy, no worries, loved. i didn't know it was such a difficult thing to ask for.

two words. broken. its the state that i'm in. two pieces.