well. i was facebook-ing (finally) and i was looking at the art students profiles. i can't help but feel down and think why am i not even part of them. no i don't mean being part of that clique, but me having to be in a design sch. dress up differently, live glamourously, have great friends who talk fashion all day long, worry about my projects, doing things that i really really like and would be happy. i had support from friends, even parents from these friends. all saying "yeah, you should be there! so you."
it was a passion and a dream for me. to walk to school and feel proud of being there. and no, its not that i am not proud to be at rp...just that there are people who just don't accept people for who they want to be. those who are close enough would know that i have a flare for all things fashion. i even went to design sch open house more than the polys.
but of all this dreams and passions, everything died after one sentance "its better to have a more stable diploma" was being said out. whats there to life when dreams are not furfilled? yes i did have one of my dream bag(neverfull), but design sch was a bigger dream. a dream i can really see myself working in. working hard and high. maybe even to a point where i'd be well known for my works.
its just ain't fair that in this life, i don't get the decision made. its always people having to come forward and put their answers down as if i wanted it. what else can i say? its gone alrd.
*to my clique, its not that its bad knowing you all or what, its just that design sch means so much to me.*