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2009-11-25T01:28:00.001+08:00

i guess i decided to really let go. i found my song. something to make me think better. good. =)
keep it up tristan.

2009-11-25T01:27:00.000+08:00

i need a haircut. something more powerful that what i have now.

but than people say i suit my previous hair better. gawd.

2009-11-19T01:26:00.000+08:00

and now i really see. seriously.

was it all worthy all this while? now to think of it, maybe not.

2009-11-18T00:49:00.001+08:00

okay. another long hiatus. gawd.

well. even though i might have said before, but now i guess i have to start facing the fact that i can't hide forever. after all those emotions and talks with chew and greg, i guess its really true that i can't always hide and i should embrace being me instead.

halloween. =)

2009-11-03T01:23:00.001+08:00

2009-10-23T18:33:00.002+08:00

2009-10-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

i'm speechless.
you led me on, you gave me hope. you showed me another side of myself. you made me proud and happy.
you and that cute tee. you and your cute smile. you and your sweet words.

but you disappointed me. disappointed me. me. you.

idk what to feel anymore. its all just numb and cold inside.

2009-10-10T01:51:00.003+08:00

utterly jealous. but what can i say/do. nothing.

so just shut up and watch. feeling pain? fuck it. i chose to feel this way, i got to bear what comes with it.

2009-10-10T01:50:00.001+08:00

2009-10-10T01:49:00.001+08:00

i feel like clubbing. like seriously.

but idk. just won't feel right without you.

2009-10-07T12:29:00.001+08:00

i finally know how i feel. its what i feared about all along. but i have never felt like that before.

but no. i'm not gonna admit or confess. because i rather keep it inside and not ruin everything that would happen.

why is it that i can give so many advices to other people but i can't seem to convince myself with them. =(

2009-10-05T17:47:00.001+08:00

i think i'm going to go mad soon.
pp. and feelings for you which i hope isn't didn't started at all.
sigh.

who can i pour my heart out to so that you won't know what is going on. =(

2009-09-30T02:38:00.003+08:00

received emails all over.
and i'm with 3 options for my bdae with ma "ladiesss" lol

1) play. they got bdae promo. but its for fridays only. but 10 guests gets free entry. so cliche to spend bdae there.

2) zirca. sunday. vip. well. its either ut week or cny week or way before/after. booze compared to play promo, not cheap.

3) butter. flossy. great. booze promo, idk. well. its butter. you know what i mean. ut week.

for ma ladies. that one you all plan la hor? gawd knows what you guys want. =/

2009-09-30T02:32:00.003+08:00

i love the paramore decode acoustic version. niceyy. =)

well. renovation of my room is almost done. just need to put up a few more shelves and a new board and BOOOM! done. =)

meanwhile, its like chew weekend all over again. lol. today, tmr(buffet),thurs(hair),sat(maybeeee?)
hoho. fri jov's big day. yet to decide what to get for her though. and i got feeling shes gonna read this, so hello you... drop me wish list eh?

i guess i planned out everything well le. this week is all things good. next week is gonna chiong pp le. like seriously chiong. oh well.

2009-09-28T23:49:00.001+08:00

where.

2009-09-28T03:09:00.002+08:00

after all this F1 thing, i'm relieved. i don't have any more commitments or whatsoever. just live by the day. do my pp. prep up for the wedding.

well. i realized that for the 19 years i lived, i can't find one thing i'm truely proud of. idk. lets hope that maybe 20 is gonna be a good start.

2009-09-24T19:16:00.001+08:00

hmm. fri-sun f1. gawd. can't believe its so fast. hopefully i won't die there. gawd.
hmm. T. =)

2009-09-22T02:11:00.003+08:00

after sunday night and some talk with chew just now, i think i want to have my bdae celebrated at zirca. sunday. glam-ed up type. theme and stuff. and yes, nice and expensive invites. oh ya, bottleS of booze and vip area. GLAM-ed up. ttm.

but its still long away plus god knows who wants to go. =/

=)!

2009-09-22T02:06:00.001+08:00

2009-09-20T02:30:00.002+08:00

i lost myself. who i was, what i was.

its a cruel world. when you choose style, you consent yourself to being lonely. to be socially different. to go out alone. go to bed alone. feel alone.

all of this for? self satisfaction that lasts for half a day. where the otherwise could last you days, weeks, months, maybe even years.

no i'm not emo. but maybe it was meant to be like that from the start. i gave myself that consent. to step into everywhere, alone.

2009-09-19T02:44:00.003+08:00

its interesting how in 3 years,

i changed so many styles. from military/esquarian/straight/chic/artsy/ and the list goes on.
how so many people came into my life and left.
how i'm always not taking enough photos with the people i love.

oh well. life goes on. and i'm happy with whats going on now.

2009-09-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

to sunday or not to sunday. somehow i think its not gonna happen because tim messaged me just now asking whether i want to club today or not. so by right, sunday no on? =/

flossy. bleeeng wor.

2009-09-19T01:28:00.002+08:00

down to the last 2 brands.
domanchi, POA.

damn.

2009-09-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

woohoo, i've been a good boy this week. please let the video be sent thru. =)

2009-09-19T01:26:00.000+08:00

666! =D

okay. since 666 doesn't seem to be a nice number, i shall use it to rant.

i kinda like my old fringe more than bangs now. =/ bangs cannot cover my un-tamed brows! =(

than now i look like every other teen who doesn't bother to look like they care about their brows, WHEN I DO! =(

okay, maybe i'm to obsessed with being well groomed.

2009-09-18T03:30:00.003+08:00

okay. good (sweaty) night.

2009-09-18T03:30:00.001+08:00

HOHO!

2009-09-18T03:29:00.006+08:00

okay. i shall keep this positive-ness in me until later morning when i shall explore PS for nice shirts.

2009-09-18T03:29:00.005+08:00

HOHOHOHOHOHO! everyone say HOHO!

2009-09-18T03:29:00.003+08:00

-chicken dance all over the floor-

2009-09-18T03:29:00.001+08:00

HOHO! =D

2009-09-18T03:28:00.000+08:00

HOHO! i'm so positive-ed up, i can't stop adding the same entry over and over again! HOHO!

2009-09-18T03:27:00.001+08:00

HOHO! somehow i feel a rush of positive emotions in me, because i saw a few photos and your blog. HOHO!
*this is what you get.*
HOHO!

2009-09-16T19:39:00.001+08:00

sunday bling? flossy flossy.

but idk.

2009-09-16T19:33:00.003+08:00

went to the training at freaking early in the morning, wasted half of my day touring around the same area for 4 times. goodness.
met up with S to go collect some stuffs. guerlain stuffs. woo.
not bad not bad. was a better start to my day.
went town and shop around so slow, i'm amazed by myself until now.
fareast,tangs,paragon,taka,hilton
met chews, continued shopping
CDG,fourseasons,shaw,fareast,cine,wisma,tangs,shaw
gawd.
starbucks,toilet,trained.

damn it. i still can't find my shirt. WHY

2009-09-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

urgh. disgusting disgusting disgusting. seriously, do you even know what is love?
still want to put online. "which should i choose?"
not one, not two, not three, but 7 options to choose from?!

seriously, is your life even worth their attention?

2009-09-15T03:07:00.000+08:00

just sleep. on the freaking aircon and sleep. i'm getting more and more and more and more paranoid.

i want your hug.

2009-09-15T02:54:00.000+08:00

after listening to the song in someone's blog, i felt something sore in me. my heart. i can't explain it. its not that i still crave to want everything back to normal. nor was it that i don't crave for it. i don't know. it just felt like its been grabbed. hard.

have you forgotten about our past? am i still in there?

why am i still feeling this way? =(

2009-09-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

i sorta want to change the pic on the right. but than somehow, i can't find any other pic that define me just by one look. =/

isn't the pic nice? shows who i really am just by looking at it. =)

2009-09-15T02:26:00.000+08:00

hmm. something wrong with blogger nowadays. or is it my laptop. i don't know, goodness.
its like not loading well nowadays.

well. friday got drunk. really thank chewchew for saving me, god knows whats gonna happen if hes not there.
i want to go on sunday, but i want to save money at the same time. plus since its a public hol the next day, i'm sure its gonna be crowded. crowded = not my fav.

its alrd 2.28, i have to wake up at 7 later. 8.30 yio chu kang. 9 smrt. training.

too much in mind alrd.

now, i only wish that you would just say yes. for now, i can see almost all of my fusses being solved if you say yes. but, if it does go out well, i think its going to be a lot more miserable. i'm half wanting and half backing. and yet, i don't know who to say. maybe can't say cuz i don't want to damage whats already there.

think too much bitch. think too much. go rest. you need to wake up in less than 4 and a half hours.

2009-09-11T00:26:00.001+08:00

tues got that f1 training.

its not that i want to whine, but its freaking 9 am at YCK! =(

2009-09-11T00:25:00.001+08:00

GAWD. long missing pre-u pic. =/

2009-09-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

2009-09-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

idk idk idk.

i'm starting to see more and more people whom i don't understand how they can get into lv. they look like little twits bouncing here and there but than i am here, willing to look presentable and shit. but all i get is dust rolling all over my gmail.

or is that the image that they want to present nowadays? the twits. since i guessing 1/4 of their sales are also from the lians and bengs in singapore who are most probby less than 18 years old.

or am i just being sour grapes?

long missing post. =D

2009-09-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

still have some shoes. but than lazy to go and take photos of them. =/

2009-09-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

hmmm.
quit my job alrd.
yes just 2 days
but i must think of myself more.
gonna start traveling by myself.
reflecting
starting new.
clean up all the fuckshit that has been happening here and there.

i'm tired. i'm sick.
when is it even my turn to be truly happy yet again? =(

2009-09-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

oh yes. no emotions. no more. tired, irritated, gone. just no.

2009-09-04T01:12:00.001+08:00

me love work! =D

i'm gonna bring my laptop for servicing soon. damn little thing spoiling here spoiling there. tsk tsk.
than do my pp.

and more work! =D

2009-08-30T08:05:00.001+08:00

done with clubbing.
i butter, chew iep
i can't sleep.
free flow at tabs.
saw alot of peeps
den, gerald, noel, jef, joel, calvin
lots.
spread news of butter
danced with lesbian.
awkward ttm. =/
left
tired
cute jacket boy
bus cold

can't sleep.
looks like gonna rain.

2009-08-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

idk. i feel numb after what i heard.
"your parents aren't gonna accept your job"
i seriously would see myself being happy and know that i grown.

but if this has to happen, i'm gonna be speechless.

it always isn't about me. its about them. ever thought for me?

2009-08-26T03:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm.
4 ut3 ended
sem 1 ended.
year 2 part 1 ended.
most probby not gonna f1.
alot of yes on butter. =)
treated myself to ALOT of m)phosis accessories.
bought marc by marc jacobs catalog and tote.
gonna need to be more independent.
single, hardworking, independent.
you can do it! =)

640th post coming. gonna take photos of my recent loots. =)

2009-08-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

3 ut3 done
no aldo
no china
most prob no nightlife
1 more ut
apec?
f1?
vogue sept!
marc by marc jacobs's catalog + tote?
asos?
friends?
love?
club?

idkidkidk

MY BEAR MY BEAR! =DDDDD

2009-08-17T02:12:00.001+08:00

2009-08-16T01:01:00.003+08:00

well. can't wait for ut to be over because its quite scary. =/
just PING all the way for this 2 weeks and BOOM! CLUBBENG EVERY WEEKEND YO! =D
or maybe work? =D *aldoaldoaldo*

2009-08-16T01:01:00.001+08:00

suddenly feel like eating buffet. eeks. =/

2009-08-13T11:58:00.000+08:00

its only two feelings when i get to sch. its a either or thing. its either angry or chui.
YAYS TO THE MAX. its like preparing to fail sem 1. yay!

2009-08-12T21:16:00.001+08:00

thing is, i don't know whether i should:
A) continue loving bags like i always do
B) concentrate on shoes
C) save for overseas shopping spree

idk idk idk idk!

plus am i starting to think of you? =/

2009-08-12T19:14:00.002+08:00

it's set. i have decided that after this week of clubbing, i'm gonna stop until ut3 is over.
i'm gonna chiong my pp also. need to finish before ut3.

after that, woohoo!~ i'm gonnna be wasted and become vip! partay like a rockstar!~ =)

2009-08-09T00:41:00.002+08:00

i guess i have to stop typing all the emos whenever i feel it. its only gonna make my blog seem like a sad one, when in the first place, its a place for happy memories.

2009-08-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna suffer in silence because i don't want you to know how i feel.

2009-08-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

idk. idk. idk.

goodness. i really need a short break. beach. breathe. someone else.

please. =(

2009-08-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

thats it. its not good now. cuz i know how i feel.
but i'm not gonna say, because its not meant to be.

i'm too young.

2009-08-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

just tell it to me. just say it. i don't want to think about it anymore.

but its just too difficult to start. =(

2009-08-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

well...lets hpe that this sunday really happens. =)

2009-08-06T00:44:00.001+08:00

control self. rejoice everytime i hear the sound of your voice.
don't look back. look forward.

you can do it. you can.

2009-08-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

longchamp? =)

2009-08-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm. i know it's not what i wish it'd be.

but, me? =/ i wish.

2009-08-03T00:43:00.001+08:00

i LOVE 1st and 2nd august. love ttm. to the max.

2009-08-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

its time to start dating. its been long enough.

2009-08-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

should i move my blog back to the old address? =/

2009-08-02T23:30:00.001+08:00

i want to go science center!! =D

2009-08-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

osim triathalon.
parkway parade.
chinatown.
play-ed.
taboo-ed.
more friends.
drink. drank. highed.
danced.
drink.
cried.
left.
bus.

well. must let go. must let go.

2009-07-31T00:47:00.001+08:00

希望你会好起来。

2009-07-31T00:46:00.001+08:00

my korean spree shoes are here! =)

2009-07-30T02:40:00.001+08:00

ASOS SHOES HERE! =D

left with tmr's spree shoes. omg cannot wait.<3<3<3

2009-07-29T18:10:00.001+08:00

someone just snatch my resume and improve it for me. =(

2009-07-29T17:26:00.002+08:00

OMG! YOU SAID YES! now i'm one step nearer to happiness. =)

pls pls pls hr say yes. pls pls pls

2009-07-29T17:26:00.001+08:00

staying at home is so deadly for me.

2009-07-29T02:38:00.001+08:00

i'm happy for you. =)

2009-07-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm. i'm starting to see a bit of a upturn in life...

no, no relationship yet.

but i'm talking about my spree shoes, shopping, style, school, life, friends. its all coming back. =)

i just need to stop worrying about stuff and live life! =)

2009-07-27T00:15:00.001+08:00

please say yes please say yes. i'd so treat if you say yes. =)

2009-07-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

i have to start treating you as a friend. no more.

its wrong.

2009-07-24T00:28:00.001+08:00

dear shoes from korea, please faster come...my feet are yearning for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. =D

bkk 4d3n flight! WTH?!

2009-07-23T15:24:00.000+08:00

2009-07-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

two thoughts keep on running to and fro in my mind.

1) feelings. i know i said this so many freaking times and said i'd stop so many other times also. but than i can't help but think whether my heart is dead or just numb. i see other people being attached and happy, i don't really feel excited nor do i feel jealous. not that i always feel jealous, but its just the occasional short thinking. idk... strange for me to feel this way.

2) what happened to my super happening night life? when i either choose to go out clubbing or out to enjoy my fav starbucks? i haven't been clubbing for quite sometime and not to even mention about coffee. i kinda miss the days where its either coffee or club. music booze caffine boys girls dancing sweating gossiping. gees.

something isn't right in my life and it have got to do with this two. seriously.

and i need a job. part time. one that favours school's ridiculous changes in its schedule as and when they like. hello, we paid for your freaking salary, kneel down and listen to us instead bitches.

must stop the emo. soon.

2009-07-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

i don't know whats going on. 2 times in a week. should i even be sad?

-be strong. be strong.-

2009-07-19T12:32:00.004+08:00

don't you think its SOOOOOOOO CUTE?!

i want i want i want i want! =D

2009-07-19T02:58:00.001+08:00

i am sad but i don't want to talk about it.

2009-07-19T01:57:00.005+08:00

i just realised it was my 600th post. the previous one where i ranted about someone else.

BUT! i have moved on! =D

nothing much to blog about nowadays. don't know what to blog, whats going on now, whats gonna happen next. but i know a few things.

1)i'm not gonna club. for a VERY long time. because i'm very disappointed at how everytime i ask people to go club with me, its always a no. i'm very disappointed.
2)i'm definately broke for now. i bought so many shoes and belts. and not to mention vodka disco from jeoooooooooooooooooooooow. =)

loot and stuff that i alrd have. gawd! *chants 'must stop shopping'*

3)school is getting more and more hectic because of all the uts and stuff. sigh. double sigh.
4)i'm still in need of the good photographer to help me take nice artsy photos. damn.
5)i'm in love with agnesb. i just whammed money to get "love". many stuff in 2 days. GAAAWD. but two is for chew, so its justifiable.
i think i'm gonna blog more often. i hope. need a place to whack my poor single soul. lol. not gonna change the layout cuz i loooooooooove it =)

okay. enough bullshit. gooooodnight.

2009-06-20T02:37:00.003+08:00

long hiatus again. nothing to post about.

its a come and go thing.

don't understand why you said that you broke up with him, and yet still have his photo in your blog under love.

like seriously? maybe i'm starting to see that our break up at first was a good thing. that you TOTALLY don't understand love. maybe i'm just finding excuses to say you. but seriously this?

2009-06-03T07:28:00.000+08:00

anyway, i'm at the seminar with dreadful internet, even though i bought the lan cable. damn damn damn. =.=

anyway, i shall go. ciao ciao.

2009-06-03T07:25:00.002+08:00

i don't understand why some people don't bother to dress appropriately. or shall i say, correctly.

EVERYONE, IMEAN EVERYONE in our team, and i believe the other schools do so too,

WE BOTHER TO BUY/GET LOTS OF WHITE SHIRT JUST FOR THIS FREAKING SEMINAR.

if you are so unwilling to put in some effort, than why even bother to come to this seminar at the first place?

have you forgotten the school name thats on your blazer? you are not representing yourself there okay. if you don't bother about yourself, do consider that other's under the same school as you suffer too because of the impression you give other people.

still want to complain people say you are typical rp student.

whine, but don't even try. whats the point of living.

thinking of you.

2009-05-12T01:21:00.002+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on where do I go
I guess second best is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters
I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay...

2009-05-09T14:19:00.000+08:00

oh dear.

2009-05-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

before i forget.

you know what, if you want to treat me like dirt instead of a friend that you call me, than i will step you down. i have said this at the start to everyone of my friends. DO NOT PLAY WITH ME.

you know its not the first time this has happened. if you choose not to repent, than too bad.
don't blame me for being mean.

and i have said before, if you make me dislike you abit, thats it. don't bother.

2009-05-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

i'm gonna sell away my dickiesssss. lots of memories with that bag, but than i rather sell it off than to let it rot under my bed.

putting all my sold stuff funds into my next china trip i guess. either that or GSS? =D

2009-05-08T00:52:00.001+08:00

hmm. subway open, got my gap bag, ig-ed for the first time, got to talk to my new classmates more, lunched with them, lunch with ex-sem classmates.

quite alot of things are turning for the better. hopefully its for gooooood. =D

2009-05-03T03:04:00.002+08:00

well. obviously the drinking session didn't happen AT ALL. this not free, that not free. damn it its so irritating.

idk. but maybe i just need some distraction. before i start to act so strange infront of others.

class outing on the 12thmay? quite fast but hopefully happens for the good la. i'm tired of going to class and not know who to talk to. =.=

2009-05-02T18:55:00.002+08:00

i'm tired.
when ever people need me, i'm there. when ever people ask me to go somewhere, i go.

but why the fuck when i need people, no one is there. when i want to go out, i get reasons?

i'm doing so much shitfuck and no one even knows.

2009-04-29T01:56:00.001+08:00

come to think of it, i quite like violence.

bad mood was gone after the whole chat at friend's blog. i like making people lose! =D